Every thirty years something magic happens in Rome
ok. since i was last on here lets recap on all the trouble ive gotten into.
1. january 4th. got in a wreck. totaled my car. hit a fire hydrant. and got the ticket…. greaaat. but thats almost over. so i know the lord has got it.
2. well due to the multiple soccer trips, and other “interesting” things happening in my life. i had a lot of zeros on class assignments. and so six weeks ends this friday but im gonna have everything in this week!
3. feb. 8th. i had an amazing soccer game. so amazing in fact that i ended up spending my wednesday night after the game. in the hospital. people dont take it too lightly when you say that you head and your neck hurts. and ambulance rides are definitely not all that fun. just a concussion and a “spinal strain.” which i think is just a fancy way of say that my neck hurts. haha
sexy huh?? i think so. ;)
p.s. that was after a bunch of medicine, so i look pretty rough. i know.
4. valentines day, prom, and a bunch of other “lovey-dovey” couples crap is coming up. dont get me wrong. i dont want to date. guys are pretty stupid and no guy can provide my happieness. but its at times like these when im reminded by everyone around me that im single. (not alone. but singe… theres a difference.) and i love the fact that my friends have a boyfriend, or are in love or all that other stuff. but i wish someone would understand that i want to have one time in my life that while everyone is out on a date, or dancing with that one special guy. im having a “singles date”(me and my friend wore the nicest blck dresses we had and went out “to show people what theyre missing out on”) or being single at prom without looking like the loser who couldnt find a date. just once. i just want to know what its like to not notice all the “happy couples” around me.
so yeah. thats all the trouble in my life. but i’d atleast like to end on a good note. so bible verses never fail.
“The lord will fight for you. you need only to be still.” -exodus 14:14
i know things will pan out. but its just hard right now to see a light through all the darkness. and im not going to pull some cheesy crap like “god is busy writing my love story/amazing life/brilliant soccer season.” but i know hes got a plan. and i know things will make sense later. and ill look back and be like “So thats why i got in a wreck, became concussed, and celebrated 16 years of single awareness in 2012!”
i must appologize for any misspellings, i am kind of out of it right now.(although no drugs.) and im also too lazy to proof read. just know. that everything stated in this. is my thoughts. my misspelled, somewhat confusing, and also over explained thoughts. you are reading the life of taylor.
there is something about new years that gives everyone hope. i find it funny how so many people can be going through the worst time in their lives, yet can forget it all as soon as midnight hits on new years eve. don’t get me wrong. i love the fact that this many people can forget what has happened to them in the past 365 days, and move on. making new goals, new plans, and a new start. but why cant we do that anyways? why does the ball have to drop in new york city, for us to move past our obstacles? and why do we have to have huge parties, fireworks, horns, drinks, the whole bang. regardless of how we bring in the new year. live is still moving on. why do we have to wait til January 1st to start forgiving, and forgetting. why cant it be on our birthday, or that one awful day when nothing goes right. or every morning when we wake up.
im still a kid, im in highschool, have no boyfriend, and too much on my plate to have a whole lot of spare time. but every morning when i wake up, i make a choice. and that choice wether or not im going to let what ever has, or will happen affect my joy or not. i have to choose to either move on. or keep looking at what someone did to me in the past. and i dont think that i want to save all of my crap til new years to forgive what has happened. move on. learn your lesson and dont be anything but happy.
my goal this year. is to not take life too seriously, if someone breaks my heart, then put it back together and find someone better to give it to. if nothings going right, then let them go left. and if i get stabbed in the back by someone, pull the knife out, and keep moving, because there is a reason that person is not in front of me. to move on, forgive, forget, and find joy in the god who created me.